"That meltdown allowed me to release a bunch of hidden stress and clear my mind. It also helped me realize that I was just going to do the best I could and have fun doing it."
I don’t always have a lot of confidence in myself. This year, I set out to work on my confidence level and attempt to take on new challenges. I am always pretty hard on myself or my abilities - my weight, my running pace, or my swim, to mention a few. However, I do feel I am pretty solid on a road bike. The ladies I train with are so motivating, and one doesn’t understand how I don’t have the confidence in myself! My family and my husband have always been so supportive and proud of what I have done.
Everything really does come down to the mindset you have about yourself and your abilities. This year, my husband signed up for a mountain biking race, ORAMM (Off-Road Assault on Mount Mitchell). There was also a shorter event the day before, the Jerdon Mountain Challenge, that he encouraged me to sign up for. I have to admit; I am not confident in my mountain biking (trail riding in Florida). I have been trail riding for two years now, and admit that I am slow and very squirrely on the mountain bike. I had my share of falls, while training on manmade trails in Florida, including one that triggered a full-on meltdown! That meltdown allowed me to release a bunch of hidden stress and clear my mind. It also helped me realize that I was just going to do the best I could and have fun doing it.
Since the time of signing up for this event, I was able to get a few more of my friends to sign up. I knew I was going to stick with at least one of the girls, since we had a talk before traveling to the event saying that we were going to do our own ride, regardless of what everyone else was doing. If we found that the trail was too steep, too sketchy or dangerous, we were just going to walk until we felt comfortable again.
The day of Jerdon arrived, and the group that we were in decided to start in the very back since we knew we were going to be slower and we didn’t want to slow anyone up. We ended up splitting off into groups of two, and my friend and I had a great time, even through the hard parts. It was motivating as I helped her get through the climbs, and she helped me get through the downhills. We got off the first mountain and decided that this was not the event for us. However, we were so proud of how far we had come since deciding to register for the event. I would not sign up for this event again, but I did learn so much about myself and my abilities, most of all that the mindset that you have about your skills and your abilities and your confidence in yourself will take you so far! In knowing that I am going to stick to mountain biking as a fun past time, not for racing, I actually have also now signed up for my first full Ironman!
Written By: Andrea Orsatti Rowan, Tri Sirena Siren Luminary
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